Been crying myself to sleep for 2 days straight.
Have a lil feeling its gonna happen again tonight...
I don't know the exact reason why I'm crying. :S
But I kinda do know roughly I guess...
Just that so much shit has been happening... and I'm not that type of girl who's that strong and can take it all...yknow!?
I smile and laugh in school like there's nothing wrong.
But I've been so depressed.
I'm not over exaggerating, no.

And this cunt, D*.
Has been treating me like shit?
He used to treat me special and sweet, and all of a sudden, it's like he's another person :(
Fucking gets me mad.
I don't think I fucking deserve it and I'm not gonna fucking put up with it.
And I absolutely hate it how people are so different on msn and real life.
They're so fucked up on msn and @%#$^$%.
I. DON'T. DESERVE. IT. MOTHERFUCKING. CUNTS.
I know I'm little and shit, but I'm not innocent. I'm not an angel.
Don't need to rage at me.

There's changes in life.
PEOPLE CHANGE.
And sometimes in life you've gotta let go of some people in your life that you've once been close to.
So.... I think that's what I'm gonna do now.
It's extremely depressing and not something I would ever want.
But if that's the way it's meant to be, so be it.
I know that I will always love you tho.

Altho I always know that me and Patty will always be friends. Always.
I feel that I've bonded so much with him.
I'm so much closer to him, and I've always been.
But I truly love him so much.
xxx

Labels: One Wish - Ray J